i have a rotting journal.
my brain cells are dead from all the counting.
i dont know what to blog about!
or rather, im lazy to trackback on what ive done for the past 1232437563241 days. =p

i wished i have a secretary to follow me all arnd, to update everything abt me 24/7.
im a walking zombie.
i eat little cos my friend taught me avoiding rice, noodles and bread can help in slimming down.
and i guess thats y im working hard on it now.
i need to slim down before october.
gdi, i dont know what else can i say.

i miss those days.

OKIE! time for a proper update! my birthday is over like yesterday. probably the most wasted birthday ever. LOL. i worked 8pm to 4am, which means, 4 hrs at work. then reached home at arnd 5 plus, couldnt sleep till 7 plus. slept till 3pm, woke up umpteen times in between, initially have plans but, plans failed and i feel rather sad about it. but its okie. like what fish said, everyday is my birthday! hahah. anyway, during work that day, i met my idol and we chatted abit and i told him its my birthday today, he wished me happy birthday and then, while i was walking to my pit, he walked towards my pit manager and asked me over. then, he told my PM to give me extra breaks so i can meet bf at TDR to celebrate. HAHA. really appreciate it so much, its work and yet he can still ask PM to give me more breaks. lol he asked why i didnt apply for BIRTHDAY LEAVE, (??? have meh??) which i find it no point if i really take it. if im 21 yes i will take it. HAHA. but 22..... forget it lahhhh. lol.

oh yah. before i mention anything else, baby gave me my very first bday present for this year. the big big stitch ive been eyeing since thousands of years ago. HAHAH. and with a mug that is stitchy boy too! and a card with a little non-die-able rose. HAHA. hearts. enjoyed myself super much during the advanced celebration we had that day. thank you. :)) then it was the celebration with the poly girls for pang and me. as usual they came up with MISSIONS for us to do. took photos with strangers and held the balloons and walked arnd bugis. lol. thank you girls for the LOMO FISHEYE CAM! i love it loads. :D

alright! back at work, a few of my colleagues sent me their birthday wishes when they saw me, which made me smile really much that day. :) and when im on break at 12 plus, i smiled to myself at every single sms, facebook post, and missed calls i receive. super heart warming to see how ppl actually remember its ur birthday and that they made an effort to send me their wishes. even though its really a short happy birthday msg, its sweet. :) im glad i met all of u in all walks of my life and u guys made my day. LOVE! and i guess im over happy and i did something kind of crazy. i actually approached ec and asked him to shake my hand! and a stunned him look at me and asked me why i say just shake my hand. den he bo bian, placed his cup of water on his hp and shook my hands, and i told him today is my bday thank you. HAHA. WTF. seriously. wad was i thinking. anyway that was just for fun. but i think he was shocked by me and i dont dare to talk to him now when i see him HAHAHAH. nvm it doesnt matter. i told bf abt this and he is 'angry'. HAHAHAHAHA. AND before i forget! YESS 933 DJ, Li Teng, came and play at the BJ tables ytd! and i was the swing for the table right before i checked out. haha. 

just heard news from bf lee kuan yew is coming to MBS tmr and pit 835 is reserved for him! media will be there, all the big shot casino managers and whoever will be there too! good luck to the dealer dealing there tmr! :DDD im dreading main floor now that im getting used to upstairs! 2 days of main floor after weeks of upstairs made me dislike main floor now.. probably cos its bj and i have to stand for the whole day. i kinda love ruby paiza room 302  though. even though theres always alot of players, but seems relax there. kinda. 

its 7am in the morning now and i still cant fall asleep. gdi. i need to wake up at 12 later, to meet bf and den the girls for dinner at night before work! im excited nervous and scared!

havent been really enjoying work totally this few weeks. made a few mistakes which i feel disappointed in. could have avoided the mistakes, but still, whats done cannot be undone, so i can only learn from it and not make that mistake again.

i still wanna rant abt the incident. stupid players. REALLY. okie i know they are dealing with real money. and being in this industry i would have to just be their sand bag. but what the heck. blackjack table, 7 boxes,(1 to 8 excluding 4)  this young player played both box 7 and 8. and when i announced the points of his cards in box 7, he showed me the stay hand sign, i said stay and moved on to box 8. box 8's cards only made up to 7, which normally players would not say stay but to card.i pulled out a card thinking the player wanted it. but to my surprise he showed me the stay hand signal and so naturally i opened it on my dealers hand. and my card total is 19 points, which makes them all die. den box 2 player start to flare up and say this is common sense where will there be players who dont want a card at 7, and say why i open the card so fast and i didnt even ask if he want a card. so, i asked the young guy, u did say u dont want a card right? he kept quiet and mind u, i asked him like knnly many times and he kept quiet and look at me and the player. wth. if u didnt say, why dont u just fight back and say u didnt say? obviously i was right! but no matter how right, they always manage to make me become the wrong one. the PM was called here and players told him what happened. and i told him i really saw him show the stand hand sign. just then, the youngster said he wanted that card, how can he dont want. its 7 and of cus common sense ppl will take. damn it. so i said okie. fine. and i thought. knn. my fault now. nvm. and den, feeling bad abt it alr, PM made me felt worse by saying dont zi zuo zhu shang help player decide if he want the card. use ur own judgement to see. its obvious 7 points, they will definitely take a card. so, LL. i said okie. and damn it. den game continues, the player took my 2nd card which is 5, which makes him 12, and the last card is King, obviously he wont want. so i took. and.. CONGRATS. im 21. 4,K,7. I EAT U ALL. and they tell me, nvm, they feeel better this way. whatever. and then, after a few rounds, the young player made the same mistake again. this time round, on point 9. angry, i asked him, u sure u dun wan card at 9. den he said wan wan wan. sorry. den i card him, and he said sorry, it was his mistake just now. KNN. YOU.

sighs. we are just like sand bags. which explains why the pay has to be higher than any other job outside. i dont know how much is all the breakdown for my this month's pay, and i didnt even bother to go and have it counted. but for what i know, alot of staff are unhappy abt the pay and went to HR to complain. haha. tips received were kinda pathetic for some and some i heard, received quite an amt. 

finally its june. half a year is gone. dang. time pass really fast. 

i believe if u have the heart to do it, u will arrange ur time well and have things done no matter what. its whether u want it or not. whether u have a heart or not, just this alone, shows it all.